I just did a thing

I deleted my xhamster account.
Originally, I was just going to delete some older videos (since I don't look like that, anymore), but it would only let me delete three per day, and I don't have time for that. So I just said 'fuck it' and deleted the whole thing.
xhamster wasn't a particularly good website, anyway. So many aspects of the site were really annoying. Especially the upload process. If I make any new content in the future, I don't know where I'll put it.

In addition to that, because of Google's recent Content Policy update, access to this blog may be restricted.
So I may close up this blog soon, too. I figured you guys deserved an explanation, rather than just vanishing, though.

I created the xhamster account and this blog during a time when I was very sexually frustrated. I had just learned how to masturbate and suddenly wanted to experience sex very badly. But I was a recluse and had been for years. There was no man in my life to share these thoughts and urges with, no one to tell me whether I'm attractive or not, and I had low self-esteem. So I created April Stark. (Because I didn't want anyone I know in real life to find my stuff by accident, while googling my real name.) I wanted attention, and a self-esteem boost, and I got plenty of both. Doing this helped me explore kinks and fetishes I was curious about, and figure out what I'd want from a guy, if I ever started dating one. It helped me have a better opinion of myself, to feel sexy and desired, and it helped me practice my social skills by chatting with strangers occasionally. 

But for a long time, I haven't been making new content. Or even logging in very often. I just don't have time, and I really don't have any plans to make any new things. Also, I'm older now, and no longer constantly horny.

Though I know many women do regret putting porn of themselves on the internet; I don't regret anything. It was a positive experience, for the most part.

But my priorities are just different now. I think it's time to retire all my porn, at least as much as I'm able to. I know those videos will never be entirely gone. They're out there, somewhere. On other sites, where I have no control over them, any more. In a way, April took on a life of her own. Like a sexy evil twin.

But that's what's up. I haven't decided if I'll close this blog or just delete the older stories I don't like anymore. But I wanted to thank you guys for all the positivity and encouragement, over the years. It helped me a lot, and I appreciate it.