Horny at work.

I don't actually become aroused very often. Usually when I masturbate, it's just because I'm bored or need to blow off steam. In spite of that, I'm thinking perverted thoughts constantly. So I guess... Maybe my mind is constantly horny, but my body usually isn't. The last time I had sex, I didn't become horny until after we'd finished. (I'm still unable to orgasm vaginally, but I enjoyed the touching and the intimacy.) I continued to be super wet for the next couple days.

When I look at porn, it takes an hour or more of sexiness, before I get turned on.

So It surprised me when my body actually became aroused today, while I was at work.

I have an over-active imagination, and will often think up hypothetical sexy scenarios, either about guys I know, fictional characters, or a place-holder concept guy who doesn't exist in any way. I do this all of the time, because I'm so lonely. It cheers me up, and helps to pass the time.

So today I was thinking about one such place-holder guy. I decided that he's curious about bondage and other things and imagined all of our experimantation in great detail.

Then suddenly my crotch was like "hey remember me?? *throb throb*"
But I was working, so masturbation was out of the question. :c

As winter approaches, I become more depressed about being single. The cold weather really makes me want someone to cuddle. I would be totally fine with a vanilla guy, but it would be really great if Mr. Hypothetical-Future-Boyfriend was kinky.

At least once in my life, I want someone to tie me up and tease me. And record it, of course. haha

A little fantasy that I'll never live out for real: I want to be blindfolded, gagged, and stripped in front of a small group of people. I want them to watch as Mr. Hypothetical ties me down and spanks me. And as he lubes up a butt plug and presses it into my ass. I want to hear their lewd comments, as he pinches my nipples fucks me from behind. Let them decide via vote what he should do to me next. What toys he should use on me.

I don't know where all of these exhibitionist feelings originated. But it's so fun to think about.